Have you ever just woke up anxious? I mean no for reason, your eyes open and your on high alert, you check your alarm clock and you didn’t oversleep. You check your surroundings and you are in your bedroom, you check to make sure the fan is on and it is. You check to make sure all your teeth are still there…why…because your anxiety tells you to. Everything is normal, why am I so anxious I ask myself?
Nothing comes to mind but then everything comes to mind. How I now have to work four days in a row twelve-hour shifts with no breaks. I have to meale prep for the next few days, I don’t have a plan set in place to do that. I still have to go to the store, the gym, get ready for work. How am I going to do that? How am I going to get all this done in a few hours?
I go to the basics first, I make a cup of coffee, I watch the coffee brew and force on that. Great now comes the second wave of thoughts, why have I gained weight, why did I not go to the store yesterday instead of going to dinner with Chris…we should have eaten at home. Why in the hell did I embarrass myself in math class by giving the wrong answer in the 6th grade? Okay coffee is done, let’s go sip on that and snuggle with Renly.
Okay game plan, not going to the gym, I have a meal from the beginning of the week’s meal prep I can use that for tonight. Chris is picking up dinner, three things checked off the list right now. Sipping on the coffee and now calming down. I pick up the book I’m reading and read a few chapters calming down with each page.
I have decided to do a ride on my peloton, able to get some frustration out and not think about anything still for 30 minutes. Wow doesn’t it feel good to sweat and get all that anxious energy out. I have changed my focus, I have changed my energy, I have changed the day by slowing down and thinking. I have taken control, I am proud of myself that I have turned my negative thinking around. But why did I say the wrong answer in 6th grade math class…..haha.
The Anxious Gent 